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i shut my eyes and count to ten
i recite every word the doctor sent me
i've learned it well, i don't miss a beat
i tell myself to let it pass
i try to grant myself some understanding
i land on ten, i'm still breathing

i'm not one to keep score
but i'm feeling like it's working more and more
i think this time might be the key

i shut my eyes and hold my head
i can't recall a goddamn word they sent me
i don't even get past number three
i'm flailing but i'm sinking fast
and hate myself more with each second passing
they cry my name, i can't hear a thing

so why should i keep score
when after every win the next one's still unsure
i really thought i had something

but can it ever be enough
when each bad day undoes a hundred good ones
i never really pass square one
i'm reaching but i think i'm stuck
i'm searching for a cure where i know there is none
so maybe i should just give up

i shut my eyes and count to ten
i recite every word the doctor sent me


from Square One, released July 6, 2023
Seth Benjamin: vocals, guitar
John Melendez: keyboard
Leo Rudberg: bass
Izzy Sollohub: drums


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Seth Benjamin & the Philistines Brooklyn, New York

Seth Benjamin & the Philistines are an alt-rock band from Brooklyn. Their songs have been called "catchy and sad."

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